When You’re Ready

On the path of awakening, which includes every human being, we gradually reach new levels of awareness.  In the beginning of your exploration, the enlightening information that you read and listen to reverberates in your heart.  You know this wisdom is truth in a place of your being that you feel but may not have the a deep relationship with yet.  Reaching new heights of consciousness, the true self begins to take over the drivers seat.  Finding yourself behaving differently, dropping self sabotage thoughts and behaviors.  There is something that excites me about this path of remembering, it is that you will not hear something until you are ready to hear it.  You will hear something a million times and then boom, you really hear it.  Each phase is essential to your sprouting.  It is marvelous when the information you have heard many times over integrates into your experience.  It is then when the magic takes place and everything changes.  You really begin practicing the thing that will make those genuine shifts within.  Nothing will be revealed to you until you’re ready, and that is beginning to be just fine with me.

Next Level

So I have been on this spiritual journey for quite some time.  Why did I go on spiritual journey? Mostly because I was spiraling out of control on pills and bad decisions.  I cared so much about what other people thought of what I was doing I couldn’t stand myself. Those thoughts about their opinion ruled my everyday.  I was tiptoeing around everyone because I didn’t want to make a stir.  All conditioning from my childhood.  I chose Kundalini Yoga as my method, my modality.  I practiced like a good little girl.  I have to say though I felt so guilty when I didn’t do the practices correctly.  So much guilt lingering around if I felt that I wanted to try red meat for medicinal purposes.  So much guilt if I wasn’t waking up at 4am to do my Sadhana.  Now let me say this, I am not knocking Kundalini Yoga. I absolutely love what the technology has done for me. It has changed my whole world because it has brought me to this conclusion here.  I will continue to practice it for as long as it serves me.  It has taught me all of the fundamental building blocks that I did not learn as a child.  I have rewired my neurotransmitters.  I will however not get stuck in feeling guilty. I will do what feels good for me in the moment.  If it feels good to practice yoga, I will practice yoga. If it feels good for me to be a vegetarian, I will be a vegetarian.  If it feels good to wear a turban, I will wear a turban.  We live in a very physical world and we are here to experience. The moment something put a limits on anything, we must question it. It is so essential to know who you truly are.  This took me five years hardcore on a spiritual journey to realize this.  Now with this knowledge, I am free to explore.  Deepak Chopra says “Knowledge has organizing power”.  You are that which others call God, Universe or Source.  That is your true nature.  We are here to release judgment.  I am ready to release the judgment of myself when I want to have chocolate for breakfast.  I am ready to release the judgment of myself when I want to wear black eyeliner and I feel I shouldn’t because I am a spiritual girl. This is how I feel…I love you but I don’t care what your opinion of me is. I will continue to explore and my truth will continue changing.